Posts tagged: rambling
Confessions of someone with an addiction: I would really like to get back into smoking, even when I am fully aware of how bad it is for me, just because I really want to get back into it. Nothing else.
SO! I need to figure out whether I want to go to the University of Manchester or to the University of Sussex… for my masters.
I’ve received 2 places for each university. In Manchester I got into MRes in Psychology, and MSc in Clinical and Health Psychology. Meanwhile I got into MRes in Psychological Methods, and MSc in Health Psychology. I honestly don’t know which offer to accept, as I need to knock back 3 others. I feel so lucky to have all these options but at the same time it has been a burden!!!
So…Thoughts? Which is the better offer?
Seems like it was a lifetime ago when we booked our flights to Cairns, but somehow life turned on us, and Al lost his pop, so tomorrow we’ll be heading to the airport… Not to go on a huge adventure up in Tropical North Queensland… but to send him off back to England. I’m not happy, and neither is he, but this is what’s going on now, and it’s what we have to face. Needless to say, I am scared shitless. It’s not like buying things from a shop, I get no guarantees. He’s off in less than 24 hours, and I don’t know if he’ll be back. I’m hanging on to nothing.
One of my best friends has been proofreading my thesis in the last half hour, and she sent me a message on Facebook saying I’m an “amazing writer”. I think I might burst into tears. :3
In six days, my postgraduate diploma thesis is due.
In a month, my boyfriend and I are flying out to Cairns (yes, we’re off to find Nemo).
And in that period of time I have to work to make ends meet, complete my coursework, and at the same time, make big decisions. Decisions that will change the course of things for ever. I have to decide whether I will be moving down to Melbourne and accept my offer to do a Masters degree in Public Health, or deferring this offer in order to have more time to wait for results from the universities in Europe that I will be applying to. I am horrified, and extremely anxious. I’m lucky to have all these opportunities, but I fear not being able to make the right decision for myself. The idea of being with Al in England is just so tempting, but at the same time I wonder if it’s clouding my judgment. I wonder if it is a good idea to move. I wonder if it will work out. I just can’t seem to put my finger down on how I feel about this, and each day seems to go faster than the one before, which makes it scarier…
Blah. I wish it were easy. :(
